Just FYI, you can hear the whole song (not just a snip) on their website: http://www.barlowgirl.com/ in the music player at the top of the page.

Rock on, girls!! Thank you for the song!!

What a moving song! Here's a song I wrote on the 25th anniversary of my son's abortion (a son I desperately wanted). Father's suffer the consequences of choosing death, too.

"I Wonder:
A Love Song to the Son I Never Knew"

Wayne Auman & Jamie Dickmann © 2007
Performed by Jamie Dickmann

You never had a birthday,
But I remember you my unborn son.
25 years since you passed away,
Was there anything more I could have done?

Young and in love,
That's what we were,
Not a care in this great big world.
I must admit you were not thought of,
Until God's plan for us unfurled.

I wonder what you would have become,
If choice had not got in the way,
Of hearing you laugh and watching you run.
In my heart your life has begun,
Who had the right to deprive us
Of all of the things we'd have done?

I Wonder...

Precious gift, that's what you were,
God knit his work within her womb,
But a hardened heart and a selfish wish,
Turned that place into your tomb.

I wonder what you would have become,
If choice had not got in the way,
Of hearing you laugh and watching you run.
But in my heart your life has begun,
Who had the right to deprive us
Of all of the things we'd have done?

I Wonder...

My only peace is knowing
That He is at your side.
That He holds you close,
And tucks you in at night.

I'll bear this empty hole,
Without you in my life,
Knowing that someday,
You'll run to me — eternally.

I wonder what you would have become,
If choice had not got in the way,
Of hearing you laugh and watching you run.
In my heart your life has begun,
Who had the right to deprive us
Of all of the things we'd have done.

I wonder what you would have become,
If choice had not got in the way,
Of hearing you laugh and watching you run.
We'll always be father and son,
Who had the right to deprive us
Of all of the things we'd have done.

I Wonder

Here's a link to the video:

www.youtube.com/watch?v=QP44BEGnXec .

Here's my account of the tragic story:

http://www.hopeforthehelpless.net/iwonder/lovesongtotheson.html

Blessings,
Wayne Auman
www.hopeforthehelpless.net

The beginning line hits me hard... "I've had the same dream many times, it haunts my mind." After our daughter was born, and then died 5 minutes later, I began having nightmares about me killing kittens and babies in torturous ways. I soon realized they were about my 2 abortions (6 1/2 years apart,)the last one being 8 years prior to our daughters death. All the deaths in my nightmares were in two's. I had not thought about my abortions ever. I had chosen to forget they ever happened, but had never asked God for forgiveness for those murders. I ended up taking a post abortion Bible study called "HEART." Through this study is where I acknowledged what I did, named my murdered babies, asked forgiveness from them and from God, and let it go. Although I know I'm forgiven, there are still earthly consequences I have from those abortions. My body cannot hold babies in my body. We have one living child who barely made it at birth due to my incompetent cervix. I also have secondary infertility. Both of these conditions can happen in any woman, but the risks are increased with abortions. My longing to have a large family has been squashed because I chose to kill those two innocent babies in my younger years. I have basketball team in heaven; 2 abortions, 2 miscarriages and 1 neonatal death!

I'm so sorry, Brenda. As you say, it can happen to any woman. I have never had an abortion, yet I have miscarried three babies, and our daughter was born 7 weeks premature. My body can't seem to hold on to my babies, either. All of our babies are waiting for us in Heaven, though. And they know nothing but love now. :)

Brenda,
I am so sorry for what you have been through. I have been there myself. One abortion and two miscarriages. I am grateful that you found post abortion recovery and found Him.
Thank you for sharing your story!

I'm so sorry, Brenda and Pamela. It seems miscarriage has touched a lot of people. :(

Oh my goodness. BarlowGirl just gets better everytime. this song is so amazing and I am so proud of these girls for not conforming!!

Ah, this song touches my heart, making me really start to appreciate what I have. I have a little daughter at home, a total sweet heart.

Thinking about all of the babies who've never made it into this world saddens me, yet also gives me hope. I know our Father has found love for all of them.

To the women who have had miscarriages or are infertile; always remember your child and love them yet, remember that there are many, many children out there who need a mother and a home.